Another year of inspiration. Always amazed how much life we can experience in one year. A very inspiring quote I carried with me every day this past year & into this new one comes from a dear friend Jeremi Mcmanus & simply goes," how are your relationships?" Via the different places I've got to live over the past 15 years I've created my family of friends. This group of friends has become my foundation, considering my blood family has dwindled to my father, a cousin, aunt, & uncle whom I all keep in very little contact with,mainly because of distance & just life happening. So my friends are my family now & who I depend on. As I look back on the accomplishments, cycling, running, professional, none of those hold any weight as much as the condition of my relationships with those amazing people in my life do.
This past year I faced something harder than any race I've done, mountain I've run up, river I've been down. That was the fight I had to put up against the everyday darkness out to destroy the beautiful connections with people in my life. The biggest lesson in this fight, was nearly 14 years ago now. Cruel things in this world & general loss of compassion drove my mom to take her life. Loss is something I understand well, sometimes its our fault to what we keep & what we lose. Other times it is almost completely out of our control. This year for me, rather than sitting by & letting life & that darkness take some things from me, I chose to fight for things I love. These lyrics embodied that fight & what I asked of the people closest to me.
i need you to be as fearless as new mothers and new fathers
i need you to be the hope of hearts who lost true love
i need you to be the might of their first kiss
i need a purpose and i need a reason
i need to know that there is trophy and meaning
to all that we lose and all we fight for
to all our loves and our wars
keep pushing on
keep shining on
this is for the hearts still beating
"If my Journey is everlasting and there is no finish line"